Open Call for Project + Opinion on Photography and Singapore Politics

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(Photograph courtesy of my family; poem by yours truly.)

Getting the ball (finally!) rolling on a video/photography project about what it means to be a woman in Singapore, and I need the help/participation of the generous folk of the interwebs:

I’ll be asking a bunch of related questions, and you can ask me questions in return. You’ll then have the option of becoming more involved by being photographed or filmed, if you wish.

I’m looking for people with a wide variety of perspectives, regardless of age, ethnicity, sexuality, or gender (take note!). However, the participant should either be Singaporean or residing in Singapore.

Interested participants can say hi at, and we’ll get started from there. All information will be kept confidential, and will never be published or showcased without your permission.

Crossing fingers, xx

P.S. You can refer to my website at for a selection of previous work I’ve done.

I also had the opportunity of contributing to an opinion piece on Singapore photography in light of our recent general elections. Along with the insights of many other Singaporean photographers such as Darren Soh and Sim Chi Yin, I gave my take on the scene as I saw it. Here’s an excerpt:

“For many young photographers, it would be their maiden chance to photograph anything of such political height. Over the last five years, the feasibility of photography as a mode of communication has culminated in a new generation of photographers who are experiencing a newly found awareness of government and its effect on the national consciousness. Regardless of media affiliation, photography was used as a tool not only to recognise the protagonists and antagonists of the rallying stage, but as a means of obtaining an understanding of the rarely politicised atmosphere that took over the country for nine days..

…However, the immediacy of the photographs also brings into question the need for sustained, long-term political awareness. What is the role of the image after the furor has simmered down?

…What is usually unseen during the other days of the year, and in the next four years to come, is just as important.”

The full opinion can be found here:

Thanks Ox Lee for thinking my opinion worthwhile!

A Poem and Two Exhibitions

In June, I had the opportunity to write a poem for Donna Chiu’s latest photo essay, Somewhere Only I Know, published on Invisible Photographer Asia.

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A series using photographic collages, the series explores Donna’s life and thoughts about family, womanhood, and identity.

Somewhere only I know,
Beyond the pages of a bedtime story,
Your early breakfast,
Our wedding rings.

My girth is widened
By years and motherhood
Years of motherhood.
I run my roughened palms
On my stomach, and upwards
The nerves of my neck
Holding up worlds
I never imagined
As a child.

I drifted
Along the coast
To here,
Where I wake up each day
To the hum of your patience
Steadfast, this rope
Holding me over places lived
And to the promises
We said we would
Keep close.

But cast far out
Are the rest of them
Father, mother, sister-
Place a finger on the spinning globe
That I cannot catch
And in our living rooms
There are oceans between us
That my bridge cannot reach
And it is not merely
Beyond grasp.

The sands slip through
My hands can only
Hold so many
I dream-ache, shake
Off a thought
As my head weighs down
Lie low, hushed still
For the next daybreak.

The work can be found here:

Thank you for allowing me to collaborate with you on this beautiful piece, Donna.

I also have two ongoing exhibitions in Singapore, the first being part of Noise Singapore’s Collective Dreams pop-up at One Raffles Place. Organised by the National Arts Council and Objectifs, the exhibition showcases work from a young generation of Singaporean photographers. I’m showing a few photographs from my Learning to Leave series.


It’s open till the end of August, so do check it out! Big thanks to Noise, NAC, and Objectifs for featuring my work.

More information can be found here:

The second exhibition is at Artistry, as part of the Shooting Home reunion group show. I’m showcasing a related series of work, this time entitled Prologue.


The childhood home, like kin, is an inheritance borne not out of choice nor effort, but sheer happenstance. It is the literal starting point of our life stories, the knot from which the rest of the thread unravels. My childhood home, and my early experience within its walls, shaped me indelibly, for better or for worse. 

I moved away when I was eight, and returned after 16 years to document the remarkable emotional resonance of place.

The exhibition will be up until 13 September. Thank you to my Shooting Home friends for setting up the show for me while I’m away! The least I could do was write the exhibition text:

Any Other City is a photographic exploration of the inescapable, contemporary city, where residents confront anonymity, boredom, secrets, space, and transience. The works interpret life in concrete, from architectural renderings of physical landscapes to emotional responses to our urban psyche.

The Facebook event page can be found here:


In Learning


In order to talk about the biggest, most defining things, one may need to return to the smallest of situations.

It started with a poem. I was back in Singapore over my college’s winter break when I started obsessively borrowing local poetry books from the library, typing up the poems that struck a chord and gathering them in a folder on my laptop. One of them, Learning to Leave by Carol Chan, an ode to the humbling process of growing up, would later serve as fodder for my work. It would take two years, an intercontinental one-way ticket, and a bumpy re-entry to my city to realize this.

They say that youth is about increasing one’s territory, a search for vastness, while adulthood is about sieving out the expanse, and returning home. It is life’s circular process of widening and narrowing that finds me standing outside the gates of my childhood home, a house tucked alongside other houses on a quiet road behind my alma mater. I am here to take photographs; it is barely 7am and the fog has not yet lifted off the field that lays opposite, so everything looks slightly mysterious and perfect for the makings of nostalgia. The gate is covered by a blue polythene sheet; the owners are in the process of renovating the house. I wander in for the first time since I was eight, walking along the driveway where I first learned how to ride a bicycle, where I would sit and pluck rambutans from the neighbour’s tree that stretched its way over the fence. The tree is still there. A construction worker is brushing his teeth, and stares at me in surprise. We converse in rudimentary Bengali; he smiles and agrees to show me around. There is barely anything I can recognize; the present owners, tycoons of a famous local hair product company, have demolished, uprooted and constructed a home of their own belonging. I walk up newly constructed staircases, past would-be lavish rooms, onto a rooftop meant, as the supervisor tells me, “for evening parties.” It is impressive, and it is not my own.

The sun begins to blaze; it is time to go. I walk along the quiet road, past my old school, down to the bus stop, and alight the bus that winds back to where I now live.

To articulate my thoughts about family is one of the most difficult things for me to do. Yet my family is a definitive part of my identity; they have, at times unknowingly, made indelible marks on my life. I see echoes of my childhood still today, in the choices I make, in the answers I offer and the silences I give, in my prayers, and in the rings of privacy I draw around myself. It is with this knowledge that I embarked on a photography project about them, centering it on old family photographs and the childhood home where they were taken. It has taken me 16 years, an overseas university education, and the privileged introspective baggage that comes with it, to interrogate this. The weight is substantial, and I might ache tomorrow.

My 72-word artist statement, submitted to the curators of the Noise Singapore exhibition, reads like this: “Until the age of eight, I lived on a quiet street facing nothing but trees. It was in this house that I made mazes out of cardboard boxes, towns out of pebbles, and where I fell off a see-saw, head first, on carpet grass. In returning to my childhood home, I found history and its hazy imprint on my life. This work is about a homecoming, reconciliation, and the ceaseless speeding towards adulthood.”

Perhaps photography is a means to this end of recovery, a path down which, where words are insufficient, to gently probe my greatest difficulty into becoming something bigger, something kinder and more reconciliatory. I do not have the courage nor the capacity, emotional or otherwise, to write about it; I have not yet grown into an adult who can look back on the past, disentangled, and write with nuance. At present, it is something I shake aside. But one of the comforts of the image is that it is open to interpretation. In many ways, it is safer. Less vulnerable. I think I am able to at least take that step.

I don’t think it would be a great leap to say that in traditional Asian households, there is an emphasis on silence – a sweeping under the oriental carpet, a communal soothe-saying. To diffuse scrutiny is a good thing; to obfuscate, even better. The familial face remains porcelain and unshattered. My introspective storytelling, therefore, even if it is crafted in the ideal of genuineness and truth (or perhaps precisely because it is so), disrupts the status quo. I am loyal to both sides – myself and dutiful obligation – and a spy to both, and could potentially be held up for treason by the familial state, whose reach of governance goes further than any political imaginary might hope to accomplish.


Local pioneering art historian T.K. Sabapathy writes, “There is little or no interest in history in Singapore because to remember is to impede being fully in the present and to thwart moving forward. To pause over the past is to be intolerably encumbered, to dwell on yesterday is pointless indulgence and to think historically is to sink into pitiable paralysis.”

It is this forward-lookingness that has transformed the psyche of the nation into one that is unhelpfully trapped in between the brimming possibility of the future and the mildewed rosey tint of the past. It is in this search for an explanation of why we are this way, and who we hope to be, as individuals and as a society, that we find a yearning to place ourselves in a timeline of lessons and answers. What is a society’s historical lineage but individual threads knotted together, family trees that reach deep into each passing generation?

It is an arc that has floated to the surface of many a local storyteller’s mindscape. The tropes of nostalgia are getting tired, but we wear them out anyway, grievously rubbing the bruise because it is there and it still hurts. For catharsis is an intensely individual experience, and belonging cannot be spoon-fed, textbook form, to the masses. In a nation that was cobbled together by consensus and state-induced memory, its inhabitants are trying to pick up the remains of what the winds of economic progress swept in and left behind.

By focusing on my family, I am inevitably searching for clues to proffer something more tangible than a harried quieting. It is this search that also found me, over my college’s winter break, plowing through poem after poem, trying to decipher the minds of my country’s writers. Call it a severely macro act of decolonization or approvable citizenry; I cannot help but both revel in and laugh in disdain at this sense of loss. I am still tunneling through the rabbit hole.


I like the gaps in stories. I like the unexpected plot holes that acknowledge that there is room for both celebration and terror. There is both grace and pain swirling in the cup that we are each given. They are true, and even if they do not reflect the experience of the majority, they are valid. The various tones and shades in between light and dark are firmly in existence. Family isn’t all goodness. It isn’t all badness either. Family, its borders and its eventual permutations, is hard. If I could sum it up, what I’d like the viewer to know is that it is okay that family brings out the sadness in you. It is okay to feel at a loss at its definition. It is even okay to be ambivalent. But it is also important to remember that we are not stagnant beings. We are made up of shifts and turns and we are able to change as we grow up and old. And we can become better. While history, in all its haziness, may follow us throughout our lives, we have choices to make and we are able to come into our own. We must learn to leave for new places. In life. In love.

This story is for my family, and for the ones who have carried me through.

Mornings in Other Places

Almost exactly a year ago, in a determined move to pull myself out of a season of drudgery, I gathered two college friends, Ruth and Elaine, and suggested that we post photographs of our mornings around the world for a week on Instagram, tagging them #morningsinotherplaces.

At the time, I was in Singapore working out of a design studio, Ruth was in D.C. working as a journalist, and Elaine was at a non-profit in Connecticut. We were working at our first official jobs, barring internships, out of college. All three of us had moved cities, and were adjusting the rhythms of our new abodes. For Ruth and Elaine, it was about building stability in an unfamiliar place – newness brings with it both novelty and fear. I was returning to a place I was expected to belong to, and discovering that the puzzle pieces, sandpapered by time, didn’t always fit so snugly.

Our lives are like threads that unravel with each breath, and for a week, I had an insight into experiences that the cocoon of university life had barely prepared us for. It was inspired by a project I had come across years ago, called 3191 Miles Apart, in which two friends living on the opposite ends of the American coasts posted diptychs of their mornings for a year, eventually publishing a book about it. My two friends were living on the East Coast, which meant seasonal change. These natural markers of time bring some form of order into our human haphazardness. I was almost envious on my equatorial island, where the sun beats down all days of the year. How nice it is to have the weather as a monitor, keeping steady and stern track of your goals, but also offering the comfort that life, if it’s not ideal at the moment, goes on.


Early in the week, Ruth posted a photograph of a window covered by a sheet, with the soft haze of sunlight seeping in. “The transition from summer to fall has been about big dreams and temporary solutions,” she wrote. “Exhibit A: In the process of yanking my hundred pound air conditioning out of my window, I tore down my window shades. These sheets are a temporary solution.”


Elaine, too, similarly observed the changes that fall brings. “Having grown up in So. California, there are some things about living on a coast with seasons that still stand out to me. At the end of fall, it’s these big brown bags full of leaves lining the neighborhood streets.” Bowl

Sometimes, it was as simple as posting about our breakfasts – symbols of our everyday routines around the world. I posted a photograph of blueberry cereal and milk in a porcelain bowl, bemused at the mismatched cultural pairing of food and kitchenware. “Morning, day three. This could be a metaphor for my culturally confused identity. Or not.”


A photograph posted by Elaine, of a split pomegranate, its seeds spilling all over a kitchen counter, is accompanied by the caption, “Thursday: Woke up in Jenkintown, PA and cracked open a pomegranate with a welcoming family.”


It seemed as though we were in a sort of waiting room. I don’t know if the feeling will ever leave, but it was certainly more acute in the immediate months after graduation. Along with a photo of the hands of a clock, Ruth wrote, “I’m trying to get used to the way the year passes when not perforated by semesters.”

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“Morning, day four,” I wrote. “The view from my window at work. Two months from now, this view will be entirely different. I feel like I’ve lived several lives since leaving Boston in May.” I had made one of the more dramatic decisions in my life when, two days after graduation, I moved to Bangladesh. At the time of the post, I had gone from sipping chai by the roadside in South Asia to enabling upper-middle class aspirations in a studio in the most expensive city in the world, and the juxtaposition was all too hard-hitting. Philly

Transitions aren’t part of a phase; we just build a sturdier core throughout the years to cope with the movement. Ruth’s last photograph was of the Divine Lorraine Hotel in Philadelphia. The caption read, “Goodbye Philly.” She was about to leave one city for another as I was getting ready to go to bed, bracing myself for the next morning’s light.

That little hashtag pulled together the very best of what social media can do; it represented a genuine closeness that didn’t exist before. For me, it was a reminder of our connectedness, and by that virtue, told me that I was not alone.